The Whole Wide World

I spent most of today in the station craft room trying my bestest to make a mask for the upcoming carnival/masquerade themed mid-winter dinner. The end result was more of a feathered headpiece with a secondary detachable maskish type thing, lol. While I was rooting through all the supplies in the craft room, I found some crushed red velvet fabric that is big enough to be a cape, so I grabbed that too. I brought all my she-devil accessories here with me, since they were easy and small to pack. So it’s highly possible I will end up going as some sort of masked she-devil. I don’t know how well that ties into carnival theme, but from a quick google search the whole idea behind carnival is over indulgence before Lent, so gluttony…and I feel like the devil belongs in there somehow. Who knows. And who cares. I am sure there will be onesies and other outfits that have nothing to do with carnival, so I don’t think I can really go wrong.

We had a station-wide group picture schedule for 3PM which was meant to be outside, but we bounced between a condition two and three with the weather today, so it ended up being an indoor photo. The weather was expected to get worse as the afternoon progressed, but it ended up getting better. At least for a bit, it’s snowing fairly heavily at the moment. I went over to one of the other dorms for Jeopardy this evening, which we watched in a friend’s room since the lounge was occupied. The walk back to my room was in the snow and it was so pretty, so pretty that I was almost tempted to go for a longer walk around station, but it wasn’t tempting enough, haha. I have an early start tomorrow morning and the idea of crawling into my cozy bed seemed a better one.

When I woke up this morning the shuttle organizer for American Night at Scott Base was looking for one last driver to fill the 9-10PM shift. I’ve never volunteered to drive, though I could if I wanted too, and I thought I’d jump in and do that tonight. Shortly after deciding to throw my name in, the weather cancelled that idea and American Night. I kept so busy this past week and then it kind of came to a screeching halt today, being off while the rest of the station was working. I could have gone and volunteered in another department but while I was feeling motivated enough to not have a typical day off spent lounging, I wasn’t quite motivated enough to go do volunteer work. I stayed out of my bed for the day and I broke the cycle of day off meals in my room, eating both meals at the family table today. But the lack of purpose for the day, sent me into my head and I over thought the fuck out of somethings that left me feeling icky. I hate feeling icky. It’s the worst.